Undecipherable

I wish
I could tell him
Her
Someone
Anyone
Who will listen
No one
Seems to see me screaming
For help
Internally as I cut myself
Down
Away from my ambitions
My hopes
Are gone
Forever
I will remain
Undecipherable.

Shadowed Soul

This feeling,

This terrible, dark, and eerie feeling,

That lies in my heart,

slithering like a snake to the front edges of my mind.

It adds weight to my shattered soul,

unable to carry it as a whole.

Consuming my being,

till the light of my spirit is shrouded and drenched,

in a thick armor of hatred.

Unable to see the light of day,

pushing everything away,

into the outer reaches of my heart,

until I have nothing left but the dark. 

Destiny

What is the destiny of the man who has lost himself,

In the tormented game called life.

Living day in and out shrouded in the opaque shadows of uncertainty.

Seeking an escape from the demons prodding at his soul.

In moments of insecurity,
In the opaque questionings of the mind,
Tempestuous emotions rob the soul of its purity,
Leaving heart ache behind.
Engulfed in thoughts drowned in iniquity.
Torn between the cultivated mind,
And the impulses of fear prodding at the untamed heart.
Logic and religion become entwined,
The soul begins to take itself apart.
Dismantling the innocent heart into minuscule pieces,
The mind loses itself and is uncertain,
The soul begins to fade, until the last breath ceases.
There lies the soulless corpse as they close the curtain,
The internal torment of the mind goes in vain,
For the ending result was the same.

Weight of life

Its to much.
I can bare it no longer,
I feel the weight with all of its force.
My lungs collapsing ,
the air scarce,
and slowly my life seeps away into the opaque night.
Tears slowly begin to run down my face,
Flooding the cold and desolate floor,
That cradles my spiritless corpse.

My Secret Wish

I wish I could stop this,
These feelings I have for you.                      
They are unrequited,
I know, but still...
My heart speeds up,
Every time I hear your voice,
And stops when I see you.
When you are near me ,
I try to take in your scent,
So that even when you leave,
At least it's still there,
Lingering lightly in the air.

I'm sorry,
That I can't be that person you adore,
That person whom your heart beats for,
That person you go to when you're in need,
Who's presence makes your spirit feel at ease.
I wish I could be the one you wished to be with,
I wish that you would let me into your closely guarded heart.
But I'm not,
I'm not that person,
And I know I never will be,
But I tell myself it's okay, because,
Just for a few minutes I can pretend,
That maybe that person you need is me.

Even though it hurts,
When you talk about other people,
I will always be by your side,
Crying silently on the inside,
Because, I still secretly hope that one day,
You will see me.