Romeo and Juliet

Drowning,

Sinking into the emerald iris,

Within it's depth benevolence is lost,

Bounded to the wall of despondency.

The extinguished flame combusts,  

Once more with a passion,

Ablaze much brighter than before.

As Romeo and Juliet sing in their rapture,

A most sweetly deafening melody,

To which the antecedent infatuation dances,

And the malign quintessence bemoans,

As the raven sings its heart felt lullaby.

To sleep fall the fairies and nymphs,

As the snakes roam the forest floor,

Purging the life beneath its bane embodiment,
Until the earth is no more. 

My Silent Wish

I don't want to lie to you,
I want to tell you everything,
I want to reveal all my pain,
I want to say that everything is not okay,
I want to cry instead of laugh,
I want you to be there when everything is crashing down,
I want you to hold me and tell me its alright,
But I cant.
I cant do any of that,
And you will never be there when my world is crushing me,
When I'm suffocating slowly,
Because I know that if I reveal the truth,
I might lose you.

So I keep pretending and laughing,
And for a while,
Everything is fine,

Until the sun goes down and I'm left in the frigid night,
Alone with my tears and sorrow,

Telling myself I deserve this,
That I deserve to be alone,
That its not fair to you,
That I shouldn't burden you too.
That the last thing you need is me.
Even though I know we cant be,
I still feel the same,
So I still have shame.
And out of it I stay quiet,
Hoping one day I wont need to tell you,
That you just look at me and see,
That all I want is to be held.
That all I want is you.

The Secret Vow

 He left her there, standing alone on the sidewalk, tears flooding her eyes. She wasn't sure what hurt most at that moment, watching him walk away from her or realizing that the one man she cared most for thought nothing of her. She slowly walked back to her home with her head hung low,tears streaming from her burning eyes onto the frigid sidewalk, her sobs falling silent on the eerily chilled summer air. The wind blew hard against her side, making her as numb physically  as she was emotionally. He had never cared, she was nothing to him, he didn't even think twice, he just walked away from her and didn't look back, it was like she was never there in the first place. She had fooled herself into thinking that she had somehow mattered to him. But now, she could see clearly, in the long mirror that hung on a wall in her half lit room. She could see the pitiful crying girl that she really was, weak. At that moment, in the darkness of her empty room with the wind thrashing against the window panes, she made a vow to herself, "I will never care again"...

The Lost Boy

It's hard to be happy in a world thats not made for him,
Where there is no place for him,
When he doesn't even know who he really is.
Afraid of the truth,
Because the lies are less painful.
He plays and pretends that everything is alright,
When in reality he cries every night.
He is tired of fitting in,
He just wants to be real,
Even if he loses every friend,
At least he will be the happiest he has ever been.

Key of Time

The young female heart flutters with such passion,
Out in the open, with no shield to protect itself,
Wounded in the tormented battle of love.
The will to beat on becomes faint,
As the pain from the open wounds grow ever heavier on the young soul.
Oh how her young spirit yearns for his touch,
But his warmth is felt by another.
The once clear world is now blurred by fervent tears,
Life it self seems as if it would stop
... or pause for a brief moment,
As the wounded heart tries to heal itself.
But what the young girl can't see,
Is the one who stands there waiting,
Wanting to enclose her in his ardent embrace,
To warm her frigid heart,
To mend what has been broken,
And to forever love her with ardor.
But time is a far greater distance than the eye can see,
And with it lies the key to happiness,
The key to passion,
The key to an undying love.

I Use to Believe, But Now I Know

Guardian Angel

In moments of insecurity,
I lock my soul into my inner self,
I hide from the outside world,
With all it's expectations.
My smile says one thing,
But my reflection screams the truth.
I curl up and stow away,
From all the impurity.

Who can see the girl who cries,
Inside of my inner darkness?
Who can hear the girl who cries,
In the bathroom stall silently as people pass her by?
No one...
Will ever be there,
For the lonely and desperate soul,
That cries out fearfully,
Laying on the cold desolate floors,
Of a heart that was never whole.

I lay here,
Waiting for my guardian angel,
To wrap me in his wings of rapture,
To protect me from the anguish of the world,
To replace my frigid tears with ardent smiles,
To be there for me when no one else will stand by my side,
For he is my path to truly living.

Undecipherable

I wish
I could tell him
Her
Someone
Anyone
Who will listen
No one
Seems to see me screaming
For help
Internally as I cut myself
Down
Away from my ambitions
My hopes
Are gone
Forever
I will remain
Undecipherable.

Destiny

What is the destiny of the man who has lost himself,

In the tormented game called life.

Living day in and out shrouded in the opaque shadows of uncertainty.

Seeking an escape from the demons prodding at his soul.

In moments of insecurity,
In the opaque questionings of the mind,
Tempestuous emotions rob the soul of its purity,
Leaving heart ache behind.
Engulfed in thoughts drowned in iniquity.
Torn between the cultivated mind,
And the impulses of fear prodding at the untamed heart.
Logic and religion become entwined,
The soul begins to take itself apart.
Dismantling the innocent heart into minuscule pieces,
The mind loses itself and is uncertain,
The soul begins to fade, until the last breath ceases.
There lies the soulless corpse as they close the curtain,
The internal torment of the mind goes in vain,
For the ending result was the same.

My Secret Wish

I wish I could stop this,
These feelings I have for you.                      
They are unrequited,
I know, but still...
My heart speeds up,
Every time I hear your voice,
And stops when I see you.
When you are near me ,
I try to take in your scent,
So that even when you leave,
At least it's still there,
Lingering lightly in the air.

I'm sorry,
That I can't be that person you adore,
That person whom your heart beats for,
That person you go to when you're in need,
Who's presence makes your spirit feel at ease.
I wish I could be the one you wished to be with,
I wish that you would let me into your closely guarded heart.
But I'm not,
I'm not that person,
And I know I never will be,
But I tell myself it's okay, because,
Just for a few minutes I can pretend,
That maybe that person you need is me.

Even though it hurts,
When you talk about other people,
I will always be by your side,
Crying silently on the inside,
Because, I still secretly hope that one day,
You will see me.

Lost on a Path of Darkness and Pain

There is this strange feeling in my soul.
It shows up every so often,
and I begin to feel like a fool.

These people I call friends,
with them I don't quite fit in.
I pretend and I try,
but the truth is that my life is a complete lie.
I don't know who I am,
all I know is where I've been.

Down the path of darkness and pain,
stuck at a fork in the road.
Not sure of where to go.
I'm lost and I'm scared.
I just want to scream out loud,
and let my pain shatter the stale chilled air.
But I don't know what to do,
I'm lost and confused.
I'm just waiting for that light
to save me,
show me a new life.

Dreaming of Love

When you sit so close to me
My body begins to shake
And i cant control my heart rate.
Rapid and strong,
Trying to leap out of my chest.

How warm is the touch of your leg against mine
How I secretly pray that your hand reaches for mine
Fantasies of your love take me away from reality,
But in the end I come crashing without vitality,
Because love is something i'm cursed to never obtain,
To never attain,
Just to dream of from afar.

Stranded in Self Sorrow

Pain so real,
Heart ache so deep,
Nothing can suppress it
No one can stop it.
Residing in the remnants of my soul,
Never to feel love or joy,
Only to mimick what i observe.
Nothing truly mine,
Just a collection of other people,
Unsure of what to feel.

Told them of all my pain.
But sympathy lasts for merely a day
And then im forgotten.
All my pain and anguish,
Sins and forbidden thoughts,
Gone and washed from their memories.
Life goes on and im still stranded,
On my own island of misery and despair.
Broken heart and soul,
No rescue and sight,
Left here to die.

Uncertainty

Its like a morbid melody coming from my heart,
Drowning out the world and soaking my thoughts.
Not sure what to do,
Was I right?
Was I wrong?
What else was I to do?
Will this pain fade away,
Or was my choice a mistake?
Were my feelings truly what I believed,
Or were they an illusion or just a thought?
All I want are answers,
The truth.
What is it that I really feel,
And is this what I really want?
Please make this wretched song stop
Before I drown in my own thoughts.

Reality of Love

Waiting so long to find love,
But only finding  heart ache.
Maybe love does not exist,
Nothing but a fable or a myth.
Bed time stories told to us as children,
Living with false hope and high dreams,
Crushed by the sudden rush of reality,
That love is a lie.
Colored and wrapped in a red dye.
Making you believe that happiness is for eternity,
When its covered with the veil of uncertainty.

Love is a fleeting moment in time,
But heart ache and sorrow last forever.

Broken Heart

I gave you something that I never let anyone have,
My heart,
And now you've broken it into millions of pieces.
Not like a puzzle,
Because that can be solved.
But like the stars in the sky,
You can put pieces together,
And form different things,
But they will never all fit together perfectly,
Never.
Something will always be missing.
Wrong,
Or not right,
And its all my fault,
Because I gave you something precious,
And i trusted you with it.
I  let myself believe that for one second,
It was possible to be loved.
But then you brought me back down to earth,
And now i stare at my broken heart strewn across the floor.

Unrequited

Love doth start sweet and in the light,

Both blissful and youthful.

However, time brings with it opaque tribulations,

Shadowing the once radiant light,

Rendering love in the haunting shadows of regret.

Remorse for loving a soul that returns nothing back.

A love so deep residing in a now hallow heart,

Refusing to let go of whats not there,

Refusing to love another soul,
Even through the sharp stinging of the pain.

The heart yearns for an unrequited love,

Never to be returned,

Never to see light,

Never to be whole again.

The heart beats in the chest,
But it doth also beat in the mind.

Though the mind wills itself to move on ,

It can not fight the steady beat of the heart.

Searching for one with a heart of the same rhythm,
A soul that shares the same dance.
As the chest rises and falls,
Air goes in, but hope floods out.
Tears that hath a chill far greater than ice,
Doth flow from burning eyes,
Into pillows that embrace screams silent to the world.

All I want

Oh how the words from you soft lips cause my heart to ache.
It beats rapidly in my chest,
looking for an escape.
Thoughts you flow through my mind,
as endless as the Nile.
I dream of your warm touch against my cold skin,
or being held captive in your gentle embrace.
Your captive glance is all it takes to make me break,
spilling my heart and soul.
My secrets are yours if you want them,
but all I want is you.

Heart and Soul

There is an aching in my heart and soul,
They cry out for you in the night.
Left alone in the depths of the shadows,
Hidden from the light.
A river doth run down my russet cheeks,
Each teardrop hitting the cold desolate floor.
My body shivers in the stale chilled air,
Awaiting and dreaming of your temperate touch.
Embrace me firmly,
Without intentions of letting me go.
Caress my face with the back of your fingers,
Bring life to me with every stroke.
For here I lie dead, cold, and desolate,
Without a breath or soul.

Pain of a Dying Rose

In the depths of my heart,
I feel the pain.
The pain you create for me every day.
There are times when you make me feel special,
but then
then you make me feel like I’m no longer human,
like I’m not from this planet,
like I’m not even alive.
Like a wilting rose.
Once beautiful,
but now neglected and faded.
So now i lay here dying inside,
slowly,
day by day.
The petals of my heart falling one by one.